by zipcat » August 19th, 2006, 9:31 pm
*She followed her friend easily along the building, balance having always been one of the things she was best at. She wondered why someone would sleep on top of a roof, and more so why a vampire would sleep somewhere exposed to the sun. She assumed that he wouldn't sleep here, and that the camp may have other uses... but she trusted Rajst, mostly. She never did trust anyone completely, and even if she refused it she knew it.*
*zip smiled when her friend said he was happy, she always wanted people to be happy. She had never been depressed, never felt alone. She knew well why though, and thought that explanation would be a good discussion. Because of his age, she knew he must be wise as well, and knew that he could grasp things other may not. Picking up a twig on the ground, she spun it between her fingers.*
"I've never felt depressed or alone, though I have felt sad or missed people." She began, letting him know where she was coming from. "No matter how much I wish my friends to be happy, and how good of one I may be, I don't think I have ever truly been one."
*She looked up then, her voice with the tone of both confession and thought. This was something she had come to understand only on her last time out. No matter how much she valued her friends and thought of herself as one, she never completely accepted the company, even if she didn't intend it, and even if she made the best of every bit of it. At least, she thought she did. Her attention was back on the stick.*
"If one was given water every day, and only enough to live on, then that person would always expect the same without emotion. Then, if the person is given more, there are several things that could happen. Mainly, their expectance could change, and they would demand more, or they would realize how little they had before. If instead, the water given was less, the person would probably miss having more as they learn of what they had, or act out of being upset."
*zip was surprising herself at how much she was sharing. Though she would always speak up, she never really shared her thoughts. She hoped her attempt to do so wouldn't leave her friend thinking poorly of her, and that she would learn something from sharing this.*
" When you get more, if you do value it, like everything else you will only value it because you know what it could be without it. Just as the person now knows how thirsty he was before, he knows less would be worse. Just by having more, without having any, he knows what none would feel like; even if the idea is assumed."
*She looked up, then, letting the stick slip back to the ground. Rajst had shared so much with her, so she knew she could return the favor. Mostly, she wanted to know what he would say, or if he could explain the thing that always caught her curiosity when she was out, past these lands.*
"I don't know loneliness not because I have never felt it, but because I don't truly appreciate company, only the joy of making others happy."